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My Space!

2005-01-20T20:46:52Z

Yeah i joined the trend and moved to MYSPACE.

make an account and hit me up...

http://www.myspace.com/index.cfm?fuseaction=user.viewProfile&friendID=7102043&Mytoken=20050120124827

sk8in2live @ 2004-12-02T18:12:00

2004-12-02T23:17:19Z

I LOVE You!!!! <333

<3 Liz

Moment to CHance.

2004-11-30T22:08:36Z

Well i'm not much of a poster but Liz told me i didn't post enough so i'll just post a little something. Not much has been goin on, footballs over so that's a blessing. Life is going pretty good, no compaints. My relationship with Liz is havin no problems, at least that's how i see it. *knock on wood* She means a lot to me and oddly enough i still like her more and more everyday. I love you. Dam that feels weird postin it in the journal, ah well.

peace.

Halloween

2004-10-31T16:55:29Z

Happy Halloween everyone. I'm one of those LJ users that posts like once a week and usually the posts don't involve too much detail into my life. Why do I not post so often? Because i don't have the time to and the only reason I'm writing now is because someone told me to. Last night was going good until the end where everything took a turn for the worst. I'm not getting into the detail of it but let's just hope something like that doesn't happen again.

*It's not a problem me takin care of you just the fact that it's constantly happening. I'll always be there for you but...nevermind I'm done.*

One Day At A Time

2004-10-11T17:51:22Z

Yeah I know this is a girly thing to do but when you’re bored…

1. We’ve really grown apart these past few years and I can’t understand how/why. We’ve been in the same class from the start and grown up together. We even went to CCD together through the ‘buddy system.’ Remember that one time I threw a Barbie doll head at your mom? That didn’t go over too well.
2. Heh, what can I say. You’ve been there for me since day one. You always had my back whenever I was in trouble. It’s a shame we go to different schools because we don’t hang out as much as we used to but during the summer that changes.
3. In kindergarten I would call you Tina because I didn’t know your name and during the summer we would always hang out. We’d go to the anchorage and get sodas from my Dad or play pool. I remember that one time we went to AC and my mom got so worried because she had no idea your mom took us there. Good times.
4. Well, it comes to you now. I’ve had my fair share of over-reactions towards you but you learned to deal with them. You’re a person I can tell anything and know that it will remain a secret. Remember that time in like second grade where you threw up all over the place?
5. We would always skate together and we both had a set dream to be sponsored by GIRL. We graduated 8th grade and everything changed from there. We went our separate ways and got into different things. To this day we barely even acknowledge each other but your still one of my closer friends.

----INTERMISSION----

I’ll continue this some other time, so to the people I didn’t do, don’t feel left out.

Boring.

2004-10-06T02:51:45Z

Well like usual here is my one time shot at a journal entry. Nothing much has been happening lately considering football is still taking up most of my life. I've been working on my system for my car and it's gonna be pretty sick. All in all i'll be pounding 2080 watts of pure music. I'm still waiting for my four 6.5" pioneer speakers to come in and then i'll have everything. If your wondering, i got two 12" pioneer subs and an 800 watt kenwood amp. I cant wait to hook it all up.

Snowboarding season is coming up and i can't wait. Last year i left the mountain accomplished. I was able to catch air and do some air grabs off the half pipe. This year i'm going for more grinds and possibly a back-flip but we'll see.

That's pretty much it for now.

Update.

2004-09-19T16:30:13Z

I need a challenge in my life. Something i can strive to overcome because at the moment i'm just lost.

Boredom, Like Usual.

2004-09-19T04:55:16Z

Havn't really been up to much lately and hopefully that will all change soon. Soon is too far. Here is some pics.

Quite boring.

Update.

2004-09-06T02:59:50Z

Well if you already havn't heard, me and liz are going out. I guess it's about time. Haha.

....

Some people you know your whole life and then with a few little things they change. Most of you people know who i'm talking about and if you don't, it's chris. This is one of the kids i've grown up with. This is a kid who i was there for him in like 2nd grade when he threw up all over the place and it was pink back at NYA. This is a kid who when he needed help in whatever it was, i was there; Making fun of girls (Anna Banana), girl problems and just everyday family/home problems. Maybe i'm blowing this out of proportion like i do everything else or maybe i'm just tired of the way things have been goin but in the long run: Times are different. But i'm not willing to accept that because he's my family and not only him, tino, drew, pat etc. I've seen a lot and lived a lot that not a lot of people know about so it hurts when i hear/see specific shit happen. Just be yourself again, plain and simple.

....

I went school shopping today for my clothes and i got some nice stuff. Then went to Best Buy, Lowe's, etc. All in all i spent like 10 hours shopping with my family. I'm glad when i get to spend time with them because with everyone's schedules conflicting it gets hard. I'm just blessed to have such down-to-earth and loving parents.

....

School starts on Tuesday and like everyone else, i don't want to go. Me and bishop were thinking about cutting just for the hell of it so we can live it up one last day.

....

Side Note: Growing up sucks and as much as you want to get older it sucks that the people around you have to get older too. Life's too short and i wish it wasn't as twisted as it is. All you gotta do is just live your time on earth to the fullest and with no regrets.

Love for everyone.

Artist: Offsping
Song: The Kids Aren't Alright

Lyrics:

When we were young the future was so bright
The old neighborhood was so alive
And every kid on the whole damn street
Was gonna make it big and not be beat

Now the neighborhood's cracked and torn
The kids are grown up but their lives are worn
How can one little street
Swallow so many lives

[Chorus]
Chances thrown
Nothing's free
Longing for what used to be
Still it's hard
Hard to see
Fragile lives, shattered dreams

Jamie had a chance, well she really did
Instead she dropped out and had a couple of kids
Mark still lives at home cause he's got no job
He just plays guitar and smokes a lot of pot

Jay committed suicide
Brandon OD'd and died
What the hell is going on
The cruelest dream, reality

[Chorus x2]

Dedicated.

2004-09-04T08:13:39Z

Look you need to understand that you mean a lot to me. Forget about what was said before and let's start over. I wish i had more to say but i basically already told you everything. I just had to put this in my journal because at the moment it's all that's on my mind.

Disappointed.

2004-09-01T17:29:44Z

Well today i found out some news that wasn't too good. I really don't want to go into it and i'm only writing this to show that it does affect me. Chances arn't given anymore and everything is either weighed left or right. If you understand that then you can almost figure out what is going on. And if you can't understand it, neither can i. But still i hoped for something to happen. Maybe later down the road as they say but fuck that, that never happens. School starts soon and i'm disappointed with the way the summer went about.

Schedule.

2004-08-27T20:04:58Z

Finally got my schedule and here it is. Let me know if you have any classes with me.

1. French 3 Honors
2. Crime & Punishment
Popular Culture
3. English 3 Honors
4. Honors World Culture
5. Lunch
Lunch
6. Func/Stat/Trig(FST)
7. Biology
8. Gym
9. TV Digital Editing.

Artist: Kanye West
Song: Never Let Me Down(feat. Jay-Z & J.Ivy)

Lyrics:

[Intro:]
Yeah Grandmama
Told you i won't let you down
Told you i won't let this rap game change me, right?

[Chorus:]
When it comes to being true, at least true to me
One thing i found,one thing i found
Oh no you'll neva let me down,
Get up i get(down)
Get up i get(down)
Get up i get(down)
Get up i get(down)
Get up i get(down)
Get up i get(down)

[Jay-Z:]
Yo, yo first i snatched the street then i snatched the charts,
First had they ear now i hav they're heart,
Rappers came and went,
I've been hear from the start,
Seen them put it together
Watch them take it apart,
See the Rovers roll up wit ribbons
I've seen them re-poed, re-sold and re-driven
So when i reload, he holds #1 position
When u hot i'm hot
And when your feet cold, mines is sizzelin
It's plain to see
Nigga's can't f*** wit me
Cuz ima be that nigga fo life
This is not an image
This is God given
This is hard liven
Mixed wit crystall sippin
It's the most consistent
Hov
Give you the most hits you can fit inside a whole disc and
Nigga I'm home on these charts, y'all niggaz visitin
It's Hov tradition, Jeff Gordan of rap
I'm back to claim pole position, holla at ya boy

[Chorus]

[Kanye West:]
I get down for my grandfather who took my momma
Made her sit that seat where white folks aint wanna us to eat
At the tender age of 6 she was arrested for the sit in
With that in my blood i was born to be different
Now niggas can't make it to ballots to choose leadership
But we can make it to Jacob and to the dealership
That's why I hear new music
And i jus dont be feelin it
Racism still alive they jus be consealin it
But i know they don't want me in the damn club
They even made me show I.D to get inside of Sam's club
I did dirt and went to church to get my hands scrubbed
Swear I've been baptised at least 3 or 4 times
But in the land where nigga's praise
Yukons and getting paid
It gon take a lot more than coupons to get us saved
Like it take a lot more than do-rags to get your waves
Notin sadder than that day my girl father past away
So i promised to MR.rany i'm gonna marry your daughter
And u know i gotta thank u for they way that she was brought up
And i know that u were smiling when u see that car i bought her
And u sent tears from heaven when u seen my car get balled up
But i can't complaint what the accident did to my left eye
Cuz look what a accident did to left eye
First Aaliyah and now romeo must die
I know a got angels watchin me from the other side

[Chorus x2]

[J.Ivy:]
We are all here for a reason on a particular path
You don't need a curriculum to know that you are part of the math
Cats think I'm delirious, but I'm so damn serious
That's why I expose my soul to the globe, the world
I'm trying to make it better for these little boys and girls
I'm not just another individual, my spirit is a part of this
That's why I get spiritual, but I get my hymns from Him
So it's not me, it's He that's lyrical
I'm not a miracle, I'm a heaven-sent instrument
My rhythmatic regimen navigates melodic notes for your soul and your mental
That's why I'm instrumental
Vibrations is what I'm into
Yeah, I need my loot by rent day
But that is not what gives me the heart of Kunte Kinte
I'm tryina give us "us free" like Cinque
I can't stop, that's why I'm hot
Determination, dedication, motivation
I'm talking to you, my many inspirations
When I say I can't, let you or self down
If I were of the highest cliff, on the highest riff
And you slipped down the side and clinched on to your life in my grip
I would never, ever let you down
And when these words are found
Let it been known that God's penmanship has been signed with a language called love
That's why my breath is felt by the deaf
And why my words are heard and confined to the ears of the blind
I, too, dream in color and in rhyme
So I guess I'm one of a kind in a full house
Cuz whenever I open my heart, my soul, or my mouth
A touch of God reigns out

[Chorus]

[Jay-Z (Kanye West)]
Who else you know been hot this long,
(Oh Ya, you know we ain't finished)
Started from nothing but he got this strong,
(The ROC is in the building)
Built the ROC from a pebble, pedalled rock before I met you,
Pedalled bikes, got my nephews pedal bikes because they special,
Let you tell that man I'm falling,
Well somebody must've caught him,
Cause every fourth quarter, I like to Mike Jordan 'em,
Number one albums, what I got like four of dem,
More of dem on the way,
The Eight Wonder on the way,
Clear the way, I'm here to stay,
Y'all can save the chitter chat, this and that, this and Jay,
Dissin' Jay 'ill get you mased,
When I start spitting them lyrics, niggas get very religious,
Six Hail Maries, please Father forgive us,
Young, the Archbishop, the Pope John Paul of y'all niggas,
The way y'all all follow Jigga,
Hov's a living legend and I tell you why,
Everybody wanna be Hov and Hov still alive.

Missing.

2004-08-26T02:06:22Z

Yeah well lately i've been M.I.A. I havn't been around much and not one to talk. I've been so tired from football that i practically sleep all day. I don't know what my problem is but my body sure is feeling it. Just felt like updating.

New Car.

2004-08-18T03:44:30Z

Well i havn't written in this thing in a while so i'm gonna give a lil update. Yesterday i got my car which is pretty awesome. It's a 1994 Toyota Celica, black with a tan interior. That's pretty much all i have to say. Here's some pics.

Quick Post.

2004-08-15T03:25:32Z

Before this summer is over, another OGP has to go down. That's a fact.

END.

Friendship.

2004-08-14T02:11:42Z

Okay, i've said this before and im going to say it again, friends don't ditch/exclude other friends. People change and i've learned to cope with it but it's such a fucked up thing. You grow up with a person basically knowing everything about them and then all of a sudden the person who would always call you to chill never does. To me friends are family and being Italian has a lot to do with why it hurts me when stupid shit like this happens. As an Italian you embrace a friend as if they were blood, it's how your raised. We are real emotional and full of love people. And when something doesn't go the way we like we say something about it and this is what this entry is about. When your friends don't even care about hanging out with you anymore because your always being forgotten then something needs to change. Maybe i'm holding onto the past but TTAC was there for a reason. It later became TAC and as of lately it's only been TA because the C hasn't been around.

But whatever, do you.

Artist: D12
Song: Loyalty(feat. Obie Trice)

Lyrics:

[Eminem-intro]
Whoa! Yeah! Ahh! (Mutha'Fucka's think they know us)
G-g-g-g Guess whos back? D-Twizze!, O-Twizzie!
Doc-Twizzie!, Shady-Twizzie!, slash Aftermath!
Fiftycent!, G Unit!, Here we go!, Free Yayo!
Mutha'fucka!, Benzino!, They don't know we finna' blow!
Someone betta' tell them so. . .

[Swifty McVay]
You don't me, McVay and I doubt if you understand me
Why would I give a fuck about you if we ain't family?
I roll with a chosen few, and those of you that's behind me
Witness the most potest' furocious *****s that rhyme
These bitches turn they back on you, actin' like they ain't did shit
When you rappin' never mix bussiness up with your friendship
If you lackin' up in this jungle, then what you breathe fo'?
*****s's don't love you, you got habits of breaking street codes
Far as static, I automaticly get medieval
When i'm after people, then i'll explode you bitches with C-4
These hoe's, have no insurance, bodies get repo'
Making you vanish even when we ain't got our heat close
Keepin' .44's where you're hoes are swallowing deep throat
If you owe me dough then you know you falling asleep, close
*****'s pupils that's what I do, i'm foolish will shoot you
Cuz' i'm coo-coo, But I don't think *****s can take in heat tho'

[Chorus x2]

[Kon Artis]
See i'm a man, and a man gon' do what he gotta do
And he ain't really family if he ain't loyal to you
If they was really soldiers then they would do what we do
And be loyal to crew and crew was loyal to you

[Bizarre]
I don't give a fuck, i'm quick to blaze chronic
Smoke on so much green, use twelves and supa-sonic
Bizarre pack guns and knives, put to dick to 'Nuns and Wifes
Now who the fuck want to fight?
Ain't nobody fucking with me, Ain't nobody fucking with the D'
They get beat like a M-P
You heard about Bizarre taking all them drugs
You heard about Proof wil'ing in the clubs
You heard about that nine that Eminem packs
You diss us, you get you're fucking face cracked
I'm from 7 Mile and stout, I'll shoot up you're house
Next day, i'll pee in you're mouth. .

[Obie Trice]
Aiyyo, loyalty's first, all the bullshit second
I showed you on the record, Cheers to who respect it
Most of these *****s neglect it
Even though it's a known method
>From the hectic hood that you slept in
You wanna' be an exeption
That's when the weapon is leaving you're half stepping
With that 'caine in you're left hand
Obie from a section that'll stain up you're flesh and
Have you on bare breast
Questionin' you're affection for streets
D-Twizzie no question
One of the best groups that done it
And Obie is their reflection
Lil' homey that know sowly that loyalty is reckin'
D-Twizzie fo' life, Obie Trice is second. .

[Chorus x2]

[Proof]
Which one of you *****s wanna' be ?boltion? bump heads
When I got a passion for clappin'. . .with one hand
Talent's on my roster this mobster's in dump land
Send a gangsta to sleep two by two like bunk beds
Never leave the crib without packing my black burner
On some T. Ali rapper to merk a have murda
Incorporated, Hitman Herry is at you're service
Reach for me one more gain' and thats closed
For life as D12, no ice and spreewells
Every night that I chill in, I fight by free-will
Knowing I can be killed
Leaving my group, pieces of proof with a reason to shoot
And a liecense to ill
We lost Bugz and i'll be damed if we loose another man from our clan
Without forcing our hand
Estorting you're family, i'll torture you're granny
For my *****'s, i'm on you're motherfucking porch with a 'Cammy

[Chorus x2]

[Kuniva + Kon Artis]
Yo its funny how *****s get caught along (and get bombed on)
Knocking teeth in back of you're throat (and break you're jaw bone)
(I'm on ignorant shit) these *****s is bitch
Pass me a cigarrete quick (shit is finna' get thick)
Yo' man i'll get split (by a brutal and critical hit)
With identical dent (or bullets with identical prints)
I'm wishing you if (you come you're Lutenints a snitch)
You teminant fick (and we know you ain't finna' do shit)
I'll stick with my clique (The Kon Artis Bomb Artist)
Kuniva The Rida' (Shooting through you're fucking Long John garmets)
Dirty Dozen (We deep in the street)
Unbelivable heat, we'll even lay you out infront of the chief of police
Muthafucka'

[Chorus x2]

[Kon Artis-outro]
Yeah! D-Twizzie
D12, Dirty Dozen
Nothing but family up in this muthafucka'
Loyal to everything that we do
You ain't neva' gonna' catch none of us slippin by ourself
'Cuz we always together
You know what i'm sayin . .
Y'all *****s don't know what family means
Bugz watching over our ass
Thats why we still alive know
Knocking yall *****s outta the clubs and shit
Haha! Runyan Av. Baby!
Shady Records!
Where yo' mamma at *****?

Football

2004-08-14T01:16:05Z

Well today was the first of summer camp for football. It was straight but like anything that you have to work for, it sucked. But the feeling afterwards you can't beat and that's a fact. The feeling of accomplishment. Tonight I'm prob. going to head over to lowell's and just chill. Football at 8 tomorrow.

Just a catchy song from EuroTrip:

Artist: Lustra
Song: Scotty Doesn't Know

Lyrics:

Hey!!!!!!

Scotty doesn't know,
That Fionna and me,
Do it in my van every Sunday.

She tells him shes in church,
But she doesn't go,
Still shes on her knees, and...

Scotty doens't know, oh.
Scotty doesn't know-oh.
So don't tell Scotty!
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know.
SO DON'T TELL SCOTTY!

Fionna says shes out shopping,
But shes under me and I'm not stopping.

Cuz Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know.
So don't tell Scotty.
Scotty doesn't knoooooow....
DON'T TELL SCOTTY!

I can't believe he's so trusting,
While I'm right behind you thrusting.

Fionna's got him on the phone,
and she's trying not to moan.
It's a three way call,
and he knows nothing.
NOTHING!!!

Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Don't tell Scotty.
Cuz Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't knoooooow....
SO DON'T TELL SCOTTY!

What a show, everyone will go.
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't knoooooow....

The, parking lot, why not?
It's so cool when you're on top.
His full on, your stuck.
Life is so hard, cuz...

Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know.

I did her on his birthday.

Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Scotty doesn't know,
Don't tell Scotty.
Scotty doesn't knoooooow....

Scotty will know,
Scotty has to know,
Scotty's gotta know,
Gonna tell Scotty,
Gonna tell him myself.

Scotty has to know,
Scotty has to know,
Scotty has to,
Scotty has to,
Scotty has to go!

Scotty doesn't know,
(Don't tell Scotty)
Scotty doesn't know,
(Don't tell Scotty)
Scotty doesn't know...
Scotty's gotta go!

Well It's Official...

2004-08-12T16:57:21Z

With anything i do, no one is ever satisfied. I never can do one thing without letting down someone. These past few days have been pretty boring. Nothing has been going on and when there is i do something else. It all goes along with the whole 'trying to keep everyone happy.' I just always end up feeling lost. Especially when i'm always asking 'what happened last night?' and waiting on the answer. This is just a rant.

Just a Little Something

2004-08-10T03:11:01Z

I go on through my day wonderin why//
wonderin the answer: why you had to die//
I lay here thinking only the good die young//
live life to the fullest, slow down dont run//
because before you know it you'll be in that box//
sent into the ground to leave the world for rocks//
and only then will you realize it's true//
that I was..will always be there for you//
till the end, ill be waiting forever//
just a slight kiss from you would make it all better//

i miss everything...everything.//

Random Post

2004-08-08T05:58:33Z

So yeah i havn't written in this in madd long because nothing much has been going down. I lost the car i was going to buy of course because nothing ever good happens to me. Well i can't really say that but when it comes to cars i don't have much luck. Maybe it's just the fact that something always better comes along. Ok in other news, liz is mad at me for something that didn't even happen or at least i'm told, i didn't get to go camping with Low L and Bish or my beach house in Breezy. I'm also supposed to chill with my girl Justine cuz she's down from NY. Well see what happens, eh?

Nothing Really

2004-08-04T04:09:07Z

I'm just a little pissed off, not really much to talk about except for the fact that tonight was one of those madd boring nights. Absolutely nothing happened.

Under Construction

2004-08-02T18:36:51Z

Don't mind all the mis-match i'm just editing up the page one bit at a time.

Movies.

2004-08-02T05:19:03Z

Well tonight we went to the movies and saw Harold and Kumar go to White Castle. The movie was madd funny. It was about these two stoners(one korean and the other indian) who have this crazy craving for white castle. All this crazy junk goes down and then they finally make it there. It's a must see. Well right now i'm just chillin, got lifting in the morning so i'm about to be out.

Thinking

2004-07-31T07:10:30Z

Ok i've been doing some thinking and a lot has been going through my head. For some reason i'm feeling lost when it comes to what 'group' to hang out with. If you aren't aware of the groups, here's a little bit of general info. There's my main group of friends that i'm mostly chillin with everyday a.k.a. the Wu Tang clan. Then you have Royal Riot (the band) and Casafras/smiac. Now normally i'd go into who is in each group but it's not worth it. Now if you already arn't aware, i'm one of the worst people when it comes to plans because i never want to let anyone down. Also i'm always afraid i'm going to miss something if i don't do a certain thing. Now don't get me wrong, i am one of the most reliable people out there, but its just hard to please everyone. The real question is: What should i do because i'm pretty much lost on the whole situation. Also, why did i write this? Because i bet in the morning i wont even realize i said half this shit.

Until next time...

Party

2004-07-30T21:58:21Z

tonight i'm most likely going to be going to mariah's party. If nothing is going down over there then i'm gonna head over to rachel's to 'steal her pool.' But the real question is, why am i writing this?